The question that haunts me

I will never compete with other guys for you. I will never try to outdo them. Instead I will fight for you and just be me :)

As clear as a churchbell it resonates through my very being and in it I have on question. Do I have what it takes to be the hero?

I have no marketable skills with jobs I want to do. I mean fire eaters and blacksmiths arnt in high demand. Everyone wants me to be a construction worker or an electrician and I don’t Frackn want to be one. Gahhhhhhhhh

My childhood has just changed…

That I am used, left over, damaged.
This is a lie from the pit because even if I was broken and used and damaged I’m not anymore because God doest fix people no he makes them a “new” creature. Bran spanking new all shiny and smellin good new.

Bricks

Oh it’s my heart. Silly heart why do you ache? Don’t be sad and don’t be impatient don’t you know God will take care of you. Haven’t you seen you have His seal on you and with that seal is a promise. A promise to one day reveal a heart for you to chase another heart made just for you so be calm :)

I can’t stand this life. The life where you wake up and go to work and finish work go to bed wake up and repeat. I am in no way condemning this life but it’s not for me. I crave change, mystery, the wonder of what new challenge will I face today. I want to wake up and be excited that I get to see what is in store for me today. I was made for more its like an instinct that God placed in me from the moment He made me.